Well I am gay Lonely depression has me. Sadness has ruled me. I'm shy but outgoing , love to make others feel good but I purposely abandoned myself.

I want to be loved but from past childhood not loved I taught myself to push away I push those who care but sad when I don't have love or friendship.

I'm a fragile piece of nothingness
poeticBrokenSoul poeticBrokenSoul
22-25, M
2 Responses Aug 26, 2014

You are beautiful.

I think in order to find friendships and eventually love first we have to get over our trust issues enough to feel safe bonding. It helps to learn to focus on the person you are with so that you get more spontaneous enjoyment out of the interaction and to learn to be with somebody for company as an end in itself. Spending time in therapy helped me a lot with this. Being with people more will help with loneliness and depression and as your support circle grows the chances of meeting someone special to you increase. Don't give up. Hang in there! Put me in you circle if you would like a friend.