I Have An Abusing Drunk Father

  I have a verbal abusing father. Since my mom almost works everyday, my dad smokes about 4        cigarettes and gets drunk about everyday.  He randomly starts yelling at me. Calls me ni****,bi***,fu****,spoiled brat,and he    threatens to beat and kill me and my mom. I tell my mom to kick him out but it seems like she doesn't want to. I don't get it. I'm only   13. I constantly cry everyday because The words he calls me can't get out of my head. I'm becoming depressed, I had thoughts about suicide. I hate it. I don't want to kill myself but thoughts of it pop up in my head. 

 

xPrimula xPrimula
13-15, F
3 Responses Feb 11, 2010

Hey, I feel like I am looking at myself in mirror talking to myself, because You and I are so alike. Remember one thing though, ( PLEASE DON'T CALL ME RUDE, ) : IT WON'T CHANGE UNLESS HE DOES IT. STOP HOPING. I HAVE THE SAME DAD. I AM 13 ALSO. AND HOLD ON TO THESE WORDS * YOU ARE BETTER THAN HIM, HE IS A COWARD.* IT GETS WORSE , BUT ONLY YOU CAN HEAL YOURSELF. AND YOU ARE STRONG. * GOD BLESS YOU.

I know what your going through.. I'll be posting my story on this too soon.. message me if you ever need to talk and hang in there, it WILL get better. <3

I'm so sorry for your pain and that you have to deal with this right now. I can only tell you this. There is nothing wrong with you. The problems belong to your father and your mother as well. Hold on, time heals all. Very soon you'll be able to be independent. If there is some place else for you to go, that is safe and legal, you might consider it. If not, stay out of his way and plan your life exactly how you want it as soon as you are able.