I Have An Addictive Personality

Multiple User Patterns, But Not Fixated... What Do I ' Have '?

By: TheWomanWhoDid

Written on February 5th, 2013

I'm not hooked on one thing exclusively, but I have massive binge periods of drinking, smoking and self pleasure ( I wish it was sex with a trusted partner)...and then I go months without anything. I don't miss it, but I look forward to the next time.

It extends to foods, TV shows, dressing styles, hobbies. I'm so confused.

My bio-father was a heroin addict.

W T F is that called?

NB: I have self diagnosed as cyclothymic (mild bipolar- Mum is full bipolar medicated... I HATE psychs) , but I do this patterning regardless of the high or low swings.

By: TheWomanWhoDid

Age: 31-35 , Female

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Scarcollection

A minor form of autism comes to mind here, but then again: 'phases' are a big thing in being a geek too, I suppose this can be both healthy and unhealthy.
TV shows, books or themes sounds like a healthy geek to me, drugs, alcohol and smoking sounds like an unhealthy geek.
Did I just imply all geeks have autism? No, but I do think a lot of people with autism are geeks, because geekdom thrives on 'phases', it makes life interesting: exploration. :-)

Feb 6
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- TheWomanWhoDid
  Autism spectrum, eh? Maybe... But I'm a neeerd. *embarrassed snort*
  
  Feb 6
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- TheWomanWhoDid
  I never said I was aiming for healthy. :)
  
  Feb 6
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- Scarcollection
  Haha, I love you unhealthy nerd, I'm one of those too, at least used to be. ;-) If you're bothered: healthy geeky behavior is a good substitude for unhealthy phases.
  I used to put agressive powders in my nose untill droplets of red fell out, I don't do that anymore, now I have regular gamenights with friends and a glass of wine, playing RPG's and boardgames. ;-)
  
  Feb 6
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- TheWomanWhoDid
  I write kinky fanfiction and EP... Friends feature in my dreams these days
  I'm poor, no drug addiction is cheap so a bottle of Gin does me a week. Bad poet.
  
  Feb 6
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- Scarcollection
  Well, just try to not drink alone. Drinking alone is what screwed me up. If I could, I'd share a glass of Gin (okay, I'd want to make it a dry martini, but whatever) together with you. :-)
  
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goodlittlegirl

Mania maybe is my best guess
Bingeing is but a symptom I'm sure
Good luck and find a therapist to point you in the right direction.

Feb 5
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clindsey5580

Sounds like maybe bi-polar..when ur on a "high"...see a psychologist..they can help..

Feb 5
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affinityterra

Umm, I don't know. You seem normal to me. I think we all go through things like that. Well, people with bipolar disorder will do things in more extremes sometimes when they are in one of their highs.

Feb 5
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