Things I'm Addicted to
Nicotine- I started smoking when i was 12 (now 21) and i swear i was instantly hooked. I tried it one day just because i was bored, my parent's weren't home and i decided to try it, see what it was like...before i knew it i was stealing ciggarettes from them on a daily basis.
Pain- I have self harmed through cutting since the age of 11, though i have hurt myself in other ways even in kindergarted. I can go months without it and be fine, but the feeling is always there...that i need it, that somethings gonna push me over the edge agian. I also think i'm addicted to emotional pain, because i'm used to being miserable, and when i'm not...i just don't feel right and look for reasons to be miserable, even go as far as creating false stories in my head and actually getting upset over it. I've gotten alot better with this over the years but i still find it hard to sleep if i'm in a good mood.
Chapstick- I'm serious, i actually get cravings for it, i always keep it handy