So today is a week since I left my ex for his beer drinking. I am strting to feel relly like I want to talk to him. and go back to him, but inside I know he is not good for me. but then I remember his company and when he was good.....I am trying my best to stay away...... ugh!!!!! I wish it was easier. Especially if he ws not my neighbor, thank god i have soccer practice after work, i hope we dont run into ech other...while i say that I thik, I wish he called me and say sorry, look all wht I am going to change for you becaue you deserve it.... even though I knw that wont happen..... im like why do I keep telling myself he might d it....ugh!!!!!