Just Need to Put It Out There

Definitely start your young and opportunity filled life.
Case closed.

If he is a drinker(as a lifestyle) and you're not you'll never be truly happy

Hi katieheffs... I am 20 years old, and although you may think that I am too young to give you any advice, please just hear me out.. I was with a man who I just ended up leaving at the end of November 2008... He was four years older than me.. We started dating only a couiple of weeks after I knew him... He was clean and sober for more than a year, and I absolutely fell head over heals for him.... Thorugh our five month relationship, he became very very addicted to crack... smoking it... along with pot... but, it kept getting worse and worse as each week went on.... I hung on because aside from the drugs, and the person he was while using, I loved him..l..he was my best friend!!! I did everything I could for him and it seemed so long that I did that... He started taking my money at times, and then at other times, he spent his ENTIRE paycheck on the drugs. He was only a prep cook at Applebee's (which was the only job he could get because he had such an awful record that he couldnt get a job with out knowing someone) .... But, I held on and held on and paid $225 a week to live in a motel each week because he ****** up all other opportunities. He knew he had a problem. He recognized it and cried about it and cried to me saying how sorry he was and how he wanted to become clean.... it got worse still... he took me on runs with him... i never did the drugs, nor any things... I got pregnant!!! After three mo nths,, and his addiction only became worse. He admitted to his counselor he was using, but then went into 4 differnt rehabs in 2 weeks and cried to me saying he couldnt be with out me and wanted to come home, and then would disappear from home for two hours without a car, which he walked to get high..... I ended up leaving him while he was in the fifth rehab of two weeks.... he was already threatening to come home and leave, and he too went through a lot of hurt and anger in his life, but i just realized that although i loved this man with all my heart, i would die for him i thought at times, but i realized along with his mothers advice, that Billy was never going to change. he was using for 12 years throughout his life with different drugs as his mother told me.... it hurt so much to leave him..... i miss him still .. i miss the person that shined through the drugs here and there at times. I miss his touch, i miss him holding me and hearing him say I love you to me.... i miss his eyes, his butt!, i miss a lot, but I coulnt continue to stay with him and allow my life to continue going down hill.... im young and have done a lot and been through a lot in my life.. i feel like im 25 or so already... But i guess after all this rambling my point is that if you know you should leave him because you dont think hes' going to change and if he is holding you back from doing what's right for YOU, then you must leave sweetie... it will be hard, but it's worth it, trust me!...... Write if you want to... i'm a good listener.