So It Never Ends...

I have posted my story before years ago and guess what.... things are still the same! Why do I keep putting myself through the pain? I just can not find it in my heart to give up on my mom. She was recently in detox and fell and broke her arm. So I decided after her surgery I would take care of her for 2 weeks until she had her next appointment. Well it has been a week and I wake up this morning with her drunk on my couch. I have been waiting on her hand and foot and this is what I get a slap in the face!!

I should have known than to bring her to my house and take care of her but she has no one else. I have no one else to turn to. I do not know what to do with her. Do I let her die? I am trying to do good in school but the stress is taking over and I can't handle it. I love my mom so much, I just don't know what to do. I can not fix her. What do you do when you have been praying for your mom to be a sober mom since you were a little girl??? No one loves her as much as I do.

I guess this story will continue for the rest of my life unless I decide to finally give up on her. I need help letting her go because I can not fix her and continue to put myself through this!

I wish I could just remove her from my life until she decides to change her life. I do not think I will ever be able to give up and lose all hope. How do you do that to someone you want so desperately to get well and someone you love so much?
bethaugust bethaugust
18-21
Sep 6, 2012