My mum is an alcoholic, has been as long as I remember. She doesn't acknowledge it. She suffers severe depression and her personality has changed over the years. She is selfish, negative and is suspicious. I live on the other side of the world and we hardly ever have contact. Usually I am the one calling. I don't want to break off the contact completely. But I don't feel love towards her anymore. Just pity. And still some anger because she never choose to change. Now she is too sick to change, at least that's what people say... I find her total lack of warmth towards me and friends the hardest to cope with.