I've Been Having

A rough time since my place caught on fire six months ago. My family and I nearly lost everything. Since then, I have seen what an amazing person, father and husband he is. It's one of those things that you don't realize how great you have it until people are put to the test. He has worked his butt off to get us back where we were in life. I never realized how much stress has been placed upon him trying to provide for our family until it was too late. He has gone on medication due to the stress, I wish I had known. He said he didn't want to tell me anything because it is his job to take care of us, provide and keep us from worrying about anything. My dear, sweet husband, I love you so much but you are a fool. We are partners, we are supposed to face life together. Yesterday I was having a really bad day. I was having problems worrying over my parents and stressing about finding a new place to call home and replacing damaged items. It sounds simple but it's such a small town and all the apartments are booked up and the only options are rental house around two grand....no thank you! My father got out of rehab and mother having health problems....everything was bottling up and I started getting it itchy. I had broken out in hives....never done that before. My husband rounded up the kids and myself, drove to an empty park. I just sat at a bench and cried and cried, watching my children run around and play, so happy and carefree. I felt foolish for crying because things really could have been much worse, I could have lost my children and husband, we all could have died in that fire. My husband comes up and tries to talk to me, I turn around because I'm not a crier. I hate for people to see me cry. He comes up behind me and just holds me and together we watch the kids playing. Usually my husband is talking my ear off so I ask him why is he so quiet. He says he already knows he doesn't have to say anything bringing me here was enough. I stayed quiet but was wondering how he knew. He then replied "You're like some freaky, mythical woodland creature...I've checked for pointy ears". To that I laughed, man do I love that man. He is working weekdays in another city this month, I miss him so much =(.
fortysixandtwo fortysixandtwo
22-25, F
1 Response Feb 20, 2012