I Got This Bright Idea This Morning

So I woke up this morning at eleven thirty and the first few things that crossed my mind were: "What am I going to eat today? Where will I eat today? Why should I eat today??? How much am I going to eat today???"
Really, It crossed my mind just like that so I wondered and wondered.. and then I decided that I am going to cook my evening meal so I'll be done eating for the day and I don't have to worry about it.
So I went to the grocery store and I just didn't know what to buy myself.
I bought a can with peas and carrots and vegetarien meat.
I am so tremendously tired from being concerned about food, it's sickening me
Nuella Nuella
26-30, F
2 Responses May 5, 2012

hello sweety<br />
i do't <br />
i deal with each day at the time<br />
but all the time i said to my self that tomorow i will stop eating<br />
i will stop thinking about planing my food<br />
be happy<br />
but nothing <br />
nothing i do in my life reach to that goal in my mind<br />
TO BE SKINNY<br />
IS ALL I WANT<br />
NOTHING WILL STOP ME FROM BEING THAT<br />
REGARDS <br />
AND STAY STRONG<br />
AND REMEMBER<br />
U CAN NEVER BE TOO THIN OR TOO RICH<br />
LOVE U BABY

Youre right ...
But how do you live like that?
Do you stop eating for a while and at the end youre so hungry you binge and throw everything out again?

YAAA
there have been days which i stop eating once for all untill i pass out in my work or whatever place i be
then i start to eat normaly but
every thing gose in my body in these days i get it out
it's a ****** up situation sweety

baby<br />
that's all i have in my mind every day<br />
every morning<br />
it's so sicking <br />
i wish i can stop eating ones for all<br />
that's my dream

hunny , what your saying is exactly how I feel
how do you deal with it?