I Have An Eating Disorder
I was pretty severely bulimic for about 5 years. I finally decided to recover about 3 years ago because I realized how much damage I was doing to my body after I had to pay a large amount of money to fix my teeth.
I have had disordered esting since I was about 7. That is when I began binging. I began purging in my teens and I had lost a considerable amount of weight. However, my binges became far more extreme. I began binging with the intent to purge. I became addicted to the horribly uncomfortable full feeling after an extreme binge and the euphoric surge of release and relief of purging.
I gradually got my self to stop the extreme binges, and ate fairly normally, which decreased my urge to purge. But I eventually began increasing my binges more and more, with out the purging. It caused me to put on about 50lbs. I hate my body.
If I could only control the binging I could get a handle on the purging.
But it's happening again.
I have had disordered esting since I was about 7. That is when I began binging. I began purging in my teens and I had lost a considerable amount of weight. However, my binges became far more extreme. I began binging with the intent to purge. I became addicted to the horribly uncomfortable full feeling after an extreme binge and the euphoric surge of release and relief of purging.
I gradually got my self to stop the extreme binges, and ate fairly normally, which decreased my urge to purge. But I eventually began increasing my binges more and more, with out the purging. It caused me to put on about 50lbs. I hate my body.
If I could only control the binging I could get a handle on the purging.
But it's happening again.
By:
emphasize
Age:
22-25
,
Female
