I eat and throw up when I feel depressed. I know this is wrong but I cannot seem to stop it. It's a waste of money and bad for my health but sometimes I don't even provoke it, I just feel nausea after eating and I have to let it out. This time is even worse because I saw her picture. She's an older, fatter, trashier version of me and I want to be as different as I can from her.