I Have An Eating Disorder
It makes me sad to see so many people in this group.
I see so many in my circle, here on EP and even in my real life who have struggled or are struggling with an eating disorder, and it makes me sick.
Problem is, I had never heard of "eating disorders" until I had one. "Anorexic" was a term used to describe really scrawny chicks; it was an insult until it became a part of who I am. "Bulimic" was a taboo topic, whispered rumours around the bathroom mirrors when a girl came out of the stall stinking of vomit. "Orthorexic" wasn't even a word to us. It was a "healthy lifestyle change".
Why aren't we taught about these things in school? Why can't we be shown the signs so that we can be aware of ourselves and our friends before it becomes too late? Before we faint in the hallways? Before our little sisters end up in inpatient treatment? Before our cousins drop to a mere 70 pounds?
Because if I was more aware of eating disorders, maybe all of the previous things I mentioned could've been avoided. Maybe that gymnast could've gone to the Olympics. Maybe that sunny, cheery girl would've lived to be 90. Maybe that family wouldn't have been torn apart.
Is it just because I've had one that I am surrounded by eating disorders? Will I ever be able to escape this and live a normal life? Can anybody?
Is there any hope?
I see so many in my circle, here on EP and even in my real life who have struggled or are struggling with an eating disorder, and it makes me sick.
Problem is, I had never heard of "eating disorders" until I had one. "Anorexic" was a term used to describe really scrawny chicks; it was an insult until it became a part of who I am. "Bulimic" was a taboo topic, whispered rumours around the bathroom mirrors when a girl came out of the stall stinking of vomit. "Orthorexic" wasn't even a word to us. It was a "healthy lifestyle change".
Why aren't we taught about these things in school? Why can't we be shown the signs so that we can be aware of ourselves and our friends before it becomes too late? Before we faint in the hallways? Before our little sisters end up in inpatient treatment? Before our cousins drop to a mere 70 pounds?
Because if I was more aware of eating disorders, maybe all of the previous things I mentioned could've been avoided. Maybe that gymnast could've gone to the Olympics. Maybe that sunny, cheery girl would've lived to be 90. Maybe that family wouldn't have been torn apart.
Is it just because I've had one that I am surrounded by eating disorders? Will I ever be able to escape this and live a normal life? Can anybody?
Is there any hope?
By:
fadingvioletdawn
Age:
18-21
,
Female
