2 Years and Counting

I'm that wonderful mess that simply get the label ED-NOS. I've starved but I never reached an anorexic weight. I was very skinny but people started getting worried and I guess I realized how selfish I was and started eating. Uncontrolled. That would be 6 months into my disorder and when I started purging.

Since then I've lost and gained the same 10 pounds over and over and over again. It's pointless, it's self-destructive and I'd kill before I'd let anyone come near to the truth. I've broken up friendships and a relationship over this. I don't know why. I know, the rational part of me knows, I can never be happy with this.

But somewhere I also know I can't be happy without it.

Skat Skat
18-21, F
Aug 21, 2007