I Have Serious Issues

I am a married woman with kids and my life is a nightmare,more or less..I have inferiority complex ..I think that every other man n woman is more attractive n lovable..I hate everything about myself ..I can blame my bad marriage for this but only to a certain extent ..I don't have a loving or caring husband due to which I am suffering a lot,emotionally and mentally and I don't think I will ever meet someone else who would fill my empty life with love because I am not perfect ...but I have to confess that even before marriage I wasn't that confident or happy..I've always had a difficult life ..But I am more concerned now because its affecting my kids..they are always stuck with me in the house..I don't take them out anywhere because when I go out I feel like everyone is staring at me and making fun of me ..I am fed up of my life..mu husband thinks that I am anti social and always judging others but the truth is that I try to look arrogant because I don't want anyone to know about my problems...
nothingtolookforwardto nothingtolookforwardto
31-35, F
3 Responses Jan 7, 2013

i dunno much about marriage life but one thing is for sure...
1)people love only their kids
2)they hate other people's kids....
you are probably the only person they can rely on....

thankyou ...I am trying really hard to accept myself the way I am

Nobody cares. I don't mean nobody cares about you. What I mean is nobody cares about the things you think they care about. Just realize, what is going through your mind, is only in your mind. You have crap for a husband because you probably felt that's as good as it gets and all you deserve. You deserve more. Your children deserve more. Get out of your head once in awhile. Realize, you are beautiful for who you are. You only deserve to give yourself the best. When you are happy, your family will be happy. I'm not saying you can change who your husband is but, you may be able to change your husband ;) Maybe a separation and time to learn who you are and what you want out of life would be a good solution. You need to be happy with yourself above all else.