Love Triangle Continues

T his story is very long, after I leave my Ex for good me and Ed start to build a strong and steady relationship. As time passes again the love I thought I felt begains to welt. He started to have an extreme trust issue with me. I am no longer happy, he assumes I am talking to my Ex fiance, he starts to assume I am sneaking around with other men. He started to cuss and call my a B...., or a SLU., he even started to say how fat I was or how I needed to work out! I felt that he tried to break me down emotionaly, I begin to seprate myself from him emotionly instead. We dint really do anything together anymore. I did not want anything to do with him, I broke up with him over and over but yet he would change for a month or two bring me gifts and I would always take him back. It feels like the same situation I was once in with my Ex fiance but instead of it being girls and lies, Ed had a trust issue with me now and a temper.

I finally ended our relationship for good. He called me everyday and was very emotional. Ed would talk about no longer living if I was really over him and how he knew we belonged together! He is a good man with good intentions but is very immature and I believe has never had his first love or relationship until me. This is why I think it is so hard for him. Two months had passed and both he and I lost communication.

I started to date a guy nothing serious but causual sex and a couple dates here and there. He is great! He is not a jealous type that I know of as of now! He has a 2 month old child. He and I are on the same page. I was not looking for a relationship and niether was he. But I started to feel all the feelings you do when you first meet someone! I found myself always thinking of him and missing him.

But then Ed started to date another girl and I was upset about this. All the attention he once gave me he was giving to someone else. So one day he came over and we had intercouse!! Man I may sound easy but its only been these 3 men..Ex fiance, Ed and the new guy...anyways! So we started dating as well !!

I am now dating two great guys but one fits my emotional and phyiscal needs ( New Guy) and Ed well Ed is Ed he loves me so much and can give me a great feature. My parents adore him as well as my family and some friends, He would be great if he just matured and gave me trust!

Ed found out I not only was dating another guy but we had intercourse! So now Ed really does not trust me. But he still wants to try and work things out. The problem with this is he gets mad when I text, feels he has to go out with me where ever I go, throws a fit when I dont see him on a daily basis, its just a mess.

I just feel that I am not being fair to him!! If I loved him how is it I am able to have intercourse with Ed and the New Guy!! I feel like I am using him sometimes, he is always there and that is why I am always with him. I hate this feeling!!

I wish I knew what to do! I cant keep him for myself if I dont really love him. I am just so lost now because with the New Guy when I see him I start to cry because I miss him so much! I have never done that with Ed or my Ex fiance...The feelings I get when I see New Guy are great but I dont try to start anything with him because I am not sure who I belong with...He has a child, and I feel like he is dating other girls because I see him maybe once a month.. If any one could give me advice or share a story anythin I am open to it all!!