I Want To Do It Now

I want to cut my wrist and bleed to death right now. Now. I don't want to live anymore. It is too painful to live and breath and be me. I want to die. Right now. I don't care who would be upset or if they would care. I'm not being helped by their pity. I want to die. My life is useless and I am stupide and have no right to live when others could benefit from the space I take up. I have the blade in my drawer. I want to take it out and use it. I wish it didn't have to be so painful.

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5 Responses Mar 11, 2010

I have no idea what you are trying to say here.

what a tizzy... looking good feeling all frizzy? Is it over the letters the acusations in english the pronounciations the jibberish? Music is such a whimsy, why not listen to something on the spinzy. No need to slash a doll or skin you call your own, its a simple minded mizzie, why not ink it and refuse the hissy.

Love conquers all, are you serious? My own father won't even say he loves me, let alone look at me. I don't love myself and appreciating life, its impossible when you have NOTHING.

actually if you died it wouldnt be freeing space it would just hurt others, it isnt pity its care and their hurt would come from their own emotions. we all hurt sometimes and its ok to find help, because after your pride has been embaressed youll feel freer, its good to have support and we ALL need it. you cant cancel out pain with more pain. there is pain but there is also good and the good is hard work but its worth it. right now you're going through your ditch, now look up to the sun. try to appreciate other things, like music, excercise, food, nature, humour, animals, do new things and try understanding other people, it may help with the pain. and remember that love conquers all (ive seen enough to know this is true). so one day you wont feel like this anymore. until then distraction and courage and finding new loves in life is key. good luck, im sure you can do it :) and this goes for everyone whos been to see death(adj) in life.

(Note to my circle: "Unrestricted Communication". Original message author can ignore this text)... Me too. My own people threw me away. Tell us on here what the issue is. Maybe one of us knows the answer...