I obviously have anger issues, but I thought they were under control-until thirty minutes ago. Everytime I get into an a dissagreement with my boyfriend, I feel my blood pressure rise and I get on edge like I'm ready for something to pop off. As if I'm ready for him to say something to **** me off so that I can dog the **** out of him. I try counting and meditating, but when I get upset I black out. It's as if my mind shuts off all "benefits-of-the-doubts," and the love I have for my man. I literally tell myself that I hate him and that I don't want to be with him anymore sometimes, then after I cool down I'm okay. I never tell him these mean thoughts, but I'm disturbed that my mind goes to that extreme when I sometimes get angry with him. He's a great guy, just very opinionated at times.

raescott raescott
1 Response Nov 18, 2009

i know how you feel. and I'm still working on this too