What TitleMMmm where to start?
I think I may be more screwed up than I thought I was.
Getting no pleasure in life seems impossible.
Truthfully there is very little that makes me smile anymore.
And that is just wrong.
I know I have things to smile about... but just can't smile for real anymore.
I just feel so nothing, numb, lost, bored, anxious, tired, impatient and today I got weird looks which made me so uncomfortable. I just don't want to go any where or do anything.
I am happy with my own company and don't need to be made to feel uncomfortable.
Sometimes I even feel uncomfortable in my own home.
Sounds weird, I know but I just do.
Add all my issues together and the puzzle just dosen't add up.
There is just something missing and wrong.
for instance : I took my kids down to a beautiful little creek area. A secret spot, secculded from the world and so pretty. But the whole time I was there with them I just wanted to go home :(.
That just dosen't seem right to me.
Is it possible to even be bored of yourself?
I keep myself busy, I run around, but that is the depth of me at the moment there is no more feeling about anything.
I just feel like I have been squashed and can't even be bothered to pick myself up anymore.