My Constant Struggle With Anorexia Nervosa

Hi, my name is Gabrielle. I suffer from anorexia nervosa. I have always had anxiety, depression, and OCD. I was doing great at school and I had just gotten a boyfriend who was just perfect. I decided that I wanted to be perfect so that I didn't disappoint anyone. I started starving myself and exercising extensively. Nobody seemed to understand why I was doing these crazy workout plans and life threatening dieting. I told everyone that I just wanted to be fit, that I wanted to be satisfied when I looked in the mirror. My mom and brothers started to really worry about me and so they told me that I was at risk of an eating disorder and that made me really nervous, they took me to the doctor the next day and he told me I had anorexia nervosa and that if I lost any more weight that I would either die or end up in the hospital with a feeding tube. I doubted him of course and was still starving myself, I did end up in the hospital, I had become so week that I could barely walk without needing to grab onto something for support, I couldn't go to school, I always had awful migraines, and the worst part of it all is that I was still trying to lose more and more weight. You know, you would think I would have learned that what I was doing was unhealthy but no, I am still to this day starving myself and it is worse than ever. Some of the girls I have talk to about my disorder say that they wish they could be anorexic for a little while to lose so,e weight but they don't even know how much pain and trouble it causes in you life. I just want to look in the mirror and see a skinny, confident, beautiful girl, is that too much to ask for?
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5 Responses Jan 12, 2013

i feel the same. feel free to message me anytime angel xx

i feel the same. feel free to message me anytime angel xx

i feel the same. feel free to message me anytime angel xx

i feel the same. feel free to message me anytime angel xx

i feel the same. feel free to message me anytime angel xx