i have /hate anxiety

i hate it when my anxiety fills me up and takes over. i hate looking around me all the time for that invisible demon my brain thinks is there and i hate laying in bed at night wanting to peel off my skin because im so agitated. i hate it that people dont understand and think that it is a get out clause, when really even i cant explain what drives me to want to leave a place all of a sudden. that for me is the worst part, being out with people and having that RUN urge and i want to get somewhere safe right right right NOW IMMEADIATLEY. its so embarrassing, it makes me feel like a kid. especially not being able to explain why....
nervous nervous
18-21, F
8 Responses May 5, 2007

I feel the EXACT same way as you do. Somedays I can't even go to the store... It is so stressful and so consuming. Sometimes just walking my dog gives me anx. But I must say...being w friends n being so uncomfortable...you just wanna run away...it's devastating. So embarrassing...bcuz u can never truly b Urself. And to other ppl ..they can't understand that. Why wud they..! Just stay strong..we have to be. It is worth it xo

I am the exact same way! I can't go anywhere, even to the store, or out side.. I can't stand my self, and it gets worse every second of the day, nothing helps.. And when people say breath and calm down that makes it worse!! I wish I could help you but I'm the same way and probably worse. Sorry :/

It is war we seem doomed to fight alone. I have found that the more I reach out to family, friends, or Doctors the more alienated I feel. The strange looks, frustration, and snide comments are so demoralizing. I have been to support groups that preach the whole "You can't just snap out of it" litany only to be told over and over to " Just chill out" or "Relax".

But....they don't understand, when you have anxiety you can't just "chill out" or "relax" the same stuff keeps running through your mind even if you think you are relaxed! It's not an easy disorder!

I have a family at home and during those times I truly do wish I lived alone. I just feel like crawling into a safe corner and be left alone until I'm ready. I hate my skin, my thoughts my existense during those times. I do tell myself over and over again is that <br />
"It will pass" and it does for a little bit at least. In the mean time I try not to add to my personal guilt and allow the little errands be put on hold for another day. Give myself permission. Hope you get better soon.

i am in the throes of anxiety at this time, have been in my room for days. i battle this off and on constantly. it is miserable. today i could barely drive to get my daughter from school and could not go in the store to get needed items. it sucks and i hate it.

It's a horrible feeling,I have been there.<br />
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When I was going through it,nobody understood anything I told them.I felt like I was going crazy.I finally found some people in a twelve step program who had been in my shoes and helped me through it.They gave me strength and support.<br />
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Something that had helped me I would like to share.<br />
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First of all,I had to learn to sit through them and not fight them.I would recognize what they were,tell myself that it was just anxiety and it would pass.<br />
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It was very hard at first but it got easier and easier.When I realized that they were controlling me and my life,I told myself that I needed to learn to control them.The more we run from them,the more they take over.The more we fear them,the more they come.<br />
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It doesn't happen over night and it takes work.Eventually over time,mine slowly went away and I have never had another,thank God!<br />
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That was many years ago!

i understand how you feel. i often get the urge to get away, but i think that may be because i'm claustraphobic. <br />
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its embarassing when i go to people's houses, because the whole time i am there i am wishing i was somewhere else.<br />
i have labled it as "homesickness", to make it seem more normal, but it isn't really.

i understand how you feel. i often get the urge to get away, but i think that may be because i'm claustraphobic. <br />
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its embarassing when i go to people's houses, because the whole time i am there i am wishing i was somewhere else.<br />
i have labled it as "homesickness", to make it seem more normal, but it isn't really.