A Guy With Anxiety
I'm writing this for both men and women that live with anxiety. No matter what form or severity, however I haven't come across loads of story about guys with anxiety and/or depression.
It seems I've had some form of anxiety my entire life. Separation anxiety when I was a kid, social anxiety as a teenager and college student and now general anxiety as a 32yo. The difference between my prior life and now is that I always had the ability to throw the anxiety to the side and continue with life. However, since the age of 28 and a near death experience, I've acquired general anxiety and have periods where my life becomes very limited.
I was roaring through my 20's (no pun intended), enjoying life and all. Then one night that all changed with a near death experience. I'll explain this in time, but I'll never forget falling to the floor and thinking "this is it, I cannot believe it". By the grace of God, I survived. Although there were times following this incident when I wish I hadn't. My life had been turned upside down completely. Not too long after, I began to experience severe anxiety, insomnia, severe depression and so on. I tried medications, cbt, odd remedies and so on. Eventually, a lot of this cleared up on it's own. Without medication. I did however stay faithful to my talk therapy.
I had gotten to a point where I regained my life and began resuming normal things like dating, vacations, etc.. at a slow but satisfying pace. And then it all returned this past November 2007 when I was extremely stressed at home and at work. The last year or so has been ups and downs, right now going through somewhat of a down.
I'd like to stress that no matter how bad things have been, I've learned that we all have a light within us. That light can be a giant roaring fire or it can be a barely visible pinhole of light. Either way, it never goes out. That light is that ping of hope, that hope of shedding anxiety from our psyches. Keep your heads up and never give up on hope. NO matter how little that hope is, it's always there.