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I Suffer From Terrible Anxiety

Well. Tonight was just awful. My husband is overseas (only for 3 weeks mind you), whenever he is away, I suffer from terrible anxiety attacks. For some reason, I always think that something bad is going to happen to him. Tonight, he was at a mates place catching up, he said he would call me when he was done. So I wait and wait and wait, until finally, I couldn't wait anymore, so I called his cell. He didn't answer . This makes me panic. I call again and again...still no answer. Well now I'm in a full blown panic attack. I hyperventilate....can't breathe properly, throw up, pace up and down my hallway, scream, cry uncontrollably. I feel like a crazy person. I am on medication for depression and anxiety....apparantly not working very well. I'm a 26 yr old female....I feel like a child! What in the hell is wrong with me. I can't stop my worrying.

nic1982 nic1982 22-25 10 Responses Aug 8, 2008

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I don't know what it's like to have a fame member over seas but I can feel ur pain. I play d 1 college football and it'srough for me especially when I get ready to go back to school. I sometimes feel like a child and sometimes I ask myself why I'm doing this but I remind myself that there is a means to an end. I'm not gonna be in this situation forever. Also I do t know if u r Christian or not but if u r try to put it in Gods hands and accept that He will give u the strength to cope with anything. Im on Ned's too and sometimes I feel the same way but I've realized that they give me an opportunity to see that things are ok.

Ive been having this since i was 14, i just turned 16 and im still freaking out like crazy thinking somethings wrong with me. Like my stomach will get upset for a few days and i completely think im gunna have something seriously wrong with me or something. I really want to be a normal teenager again and im trying my hardest. My anxiety started because my dad had cancer when i was really little, and whenever i feel an ache or pain in my body i automatically think its something that he had. Its terrible. I know how it feels to have these attacks.

Ive been having this since i was 14, i just turned 16 and im still freaking out like crazy thinking somethings wrong with me. Like my stomach will get upset for a few days and i completely think im gunna have something seriously wrong with me or something. I really want to be a normal teenager again and im trying my hardest. My anxiety started because my dad had cancer when i was really little, and whenever i feel an ache or pain in my body i automatically think its something that he had. Its terrible. I know how it feels to have these attacks.

Hi everyone. I'm writing this now because i honestly cannot take it anymore. My anxiety has pretty much taken over my life. I have developed OCD on top of all of this. It takes me a very long time just to walk out of my house without doing certain things, rediculous things. like fixing magazines and putting them in what i feel is the "correct place" or touching certain ob<x>jects in my room sometimes up to 20 times over and over again. if i dont do all of these i feel as if something terrible will happen. What bothers me even worse than the OCD however is just the anxiety itself. i worry ALL THE TIME. from the moment i wake up, to the moment i fall asleep. if somebody i care about doesnt call me or i dont know where they are, no doubt about it, i assumed the worst, and assumed that they died. it is driving my girlfriend crazy because this causes me to call her constantly and not give her any space. she understands but it is getting to the point where it is just rediculous. i cant sleep sometiems, i cant eat, i shake, i vomit, my heart pounds through my chest. im not on medication but am defanitly considering taking some. i am an 18 year old male and i need help....i never vent about anything and i hold everything in...anyone who reads this please write back...i need help and i really cannot take it anymore. i had a friend ask me when the last time i was truly happy was. i thought deeply about the question and honestly could not remember the last time i was happy, this made me even more upset. please im asking anyone to write back and help me....thank you so much for reading this...please help

THIS GO OUT TO;NIC182, LISTEN YOU'RE NOT GOING CRAZY YOU JUST FEELING THE REACTIONS OF A HUMAN BEING THIS IS NATURAL THIS IS YOU'RE HUSBAND, GO FIND YOU A CHURCH TO GO TO THIS IS THE ONLY WAY YOU'RE GOING TO GET THROUGH THE WAITING AND THE AXIETY AND THE ATTACKS, SEE THIS IS WHAT THE DEVIL DO PUT ALL KIND OF CRAZY THOUGHTS IN YOU'RE HEAD,HE LIKES TO TOUREMENT YOU ,SO YOU WON'T BE ABLE TO PRAY OUT OF THIS TOUREMENT,YOU'RE NOT CRAZY AND YOUPROBALY DON'T NEED THAT MEDICATION THAT YOU'RE TAKING,THAT COULD BE WHAT'S MAKING YOU GO THROUGH THE ATTACKS YOU'RE HAVING,SEE THEIR ARE SIDE AFFECTS TO THAT PHYSIC MEDS ,THAT'S WHAT THEY ARE ,SEE WHEN MY MOM DIED THE DAY AFTER XMAS ,I DID'NT THINK I COULD MAKE IT AND I TURN TO THE LORD ,HE HELP ME GO THROUGH HER FRUNERAL ,EVEN MY CO-WORKER'S COULD'NT BELIEVE HOW COM HER FUNERAL SERVICE WAS,WE CRIED BUT NOT LIKE IF WE DID'NT KNOW GOD,SO FOCUS ON THAT .CAUSE IF YOU HAVE KIDS THEY NEED YOU TO BE STRONG ,WHAT DO THEY DO IF THEY SEE YOU FALLING APART AND WHEN ,HE CALLLS YOU HAVE HIM ALL UP SET THINKING .YOU CAN'T HOLD IT TOGETHER UNTIL HE COMES BACK HOME, CAUSE WHAT EVER ,GOD GOT HIS DESTINY YOU CAN'T CHANGE IT ANYWAY, NOT SOUNDING TO BE COLD I DON'T KNOW YOU ,BUT I KNOW THAT FEELING,PLEASE BELIEVE ME I KNOW. I PRAY EVERYDAY ,TO MAKE IT THROUGH, GOD IS GOOD ,I'M 54 YR'S OLD I HAD TO QUIT WORK I HAD TO HAVE 2-KNEE REPLACEMENTS I LIVE ALONG ,MY KIDS ARE GROWN, WITH THE LOVE OF THE GOOD LORD ,HE TAKES CARE OF ME, IN 1993.I HAD A TUMOR GROWING ON THE ARTERY TO MY BRAIN I'M HERE TODAY TO WRITE YOU.I'M TELLING YOU THIS FROM MY OWN EXPERIENCE, I WAS SUPPOSE TO BE DEAD A LONG TIME AGO ,BUT GOD SAID NO CAUSE HE LOVES ME AND HE LOVE YOU ALSO,TRY HIM I BET YOU A FEEL 100/% BETTER. AMEN ,I'M PRAYING FOR YOU,GOD LOVES'-U-AND YOU'RE HUSBAND HE GONE TAKE CARE OF HIM. STOP WORRING GIVE IT TO GOD,IT'S BIGGER THAN YOU !HE A HEAR YOU'RE PRAYER..OK LET ME KNOW HOW YOU'RE DOING ,WE A STAY IN TOUCH. BLESS YOU DIANE MOSS

I get them sometimes for no reason at all, I'm not on meds or anything but sometimes my body just kicks into gear and my mind takes over and boom here i go having a panic attack, i get up and walk outside, i try to stay with or around people just in case i pass out and don't wake up (because i feel like i'm going to die). i just want to be normal too!

oh honey, i don't think there's really anything wrong with you. you love your husband and you're worried/concerned/stressed. you have every right to be. i, too, am separated from my husband in a similar way that you are, and we too have phone contact. he does this to me sometimes (as you read in one of my stories). i used to handle it the same way you do, but now i do the only thing that helps me get through it... i turn my cell phone on silent, lay it in the other room, and ignore it for awhile. that way i'm not driving myself crazy wondering "why hasn't he called back??! is he ok!? is he hurt?!". i will then later check my phone, and more often than not i will have phone calls/text messages from him stating his reason for not answering.<br />
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distance is difficult in a marriage, there's no denying it. try my way of handling it and see if it helps any. i know it has majorly improved my stress levels.<br />
let me know!

It is good to know that there are people out there who really understand.<br />
Thanks

I understand as well. I had one just two nights ago. It is always over the silliest things for me! You are right you do feel like you are gonna die.

I know how you feel. I have those attacks all the time. I sometimes worry that I am dying. Its awful. I'm only 18 and have been having them since I was very very very young. I use to have them when I threw up from the flu thinking that I was dying. I pace, my throat swells, My heart pounds, I shake, my stomach gets sick, I throw up then finally when I calm myself I am very fatigued and have to go to sleep. Its awful. I completely understand.