Head And Shoulders

For a blessed instance, I am no where and I am no one. I float in a sphere of calm. The a tide of fear comes in. My stomach grows nauseous. I go to the bathroom. I might notice I am so tense my shoulders are trying their best to touch my ears. If I do notice, I will relax my shoulders. How often am I frozen like that? My mom told me in the last days, before I left home, that the same thing would happen to her. If anxiety is in the genes, it got into mine with ease. She was also taking Xanax and stopped cold turkey. Now, 17 years later I know too about Xanax and what stopping suddenly can do to you. Mom, I didn't notice a thing.
Kittychanel Kittychanel
41-45, F
Jan 20, 2013