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I Have Bed, Binge Eating Disorder

SRAPING the Barrel

By: iaceli
Written on September 24th, 2009

I'VE BINGE EATING DISORDER....

IT TOOK ME YEARS TO ADMIT THAT I'VE A BIG HUGE PROBLE....HUGE LIKE THE AMOUNT OF FOOD I CAN SWALLOW IN A REALLY SHORT PERIOD. I'VE NOBODY TO TALK TO ABOUT THIS AND I REALLY FEEL HELPLESS AND ASHAMED OF MYSELF.

I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO SOLVE THIS PROBLEM THAT NONE OF MY FAMYLY OR FRIENDS KNOW. BECAUSE I FEEL ASHAMED THAT EVERYBODY IS GONNA FIND OUT THAT I'VE A PROBLEM. ME WITH MY ENERGY AND MY SHOWN HAPPINESS...NOBODY CAN BELIEVE THAT. BUT I'M SO UNHAPPY. AND I'M THE ONE WHO IS MAKING ME UNHAPPY AND EVERY TIME I EAT IS BECAUSE I SWALLOW MY FEELINGS. I DO NOT WANT TO BE ALONE, BUT I'M ALONE MORE THAN ANYBODY THINK....MORE THAN I CAN IMMAGINE....THE FOOD KEEPS ME COMPANY TOGETHER WITH MY OVERWEIGHT.

I CANNOT WATCH MYSELF IN THE MIRROR.

I KNOW I NEED HELP BUT I'M TOO AFRAID TO ASK.

 

By: iaceli
Age: 26-30 , Female
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  • iaceli
    iaceli

    thank you chickadeedee,

    it so nice of you.

    i joined EP yesterday and i already had two comment about my problem. it means that opening myself doesn't always mean that someone is judging me.

    i'm planning to go on vacation with my best friend neext week and i'm gonna talk to her. she'll be the "first" to know and she'll understand....i hope.



    and you are right....I'M WORTH IT. i didn't say i love that much in my life...and now i know why...cuz i didn't love me enough. but know i feel the moment to start the best relationship in my life has arrived. i want to start a relationship with me and starting loving me as I am.



    hugs

    Sep 25, 2009
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  • iaceli
    iaceli

    Hi

    thank you very much for your comment. It means a lot to me. I know i'm not perfect but sometimes i forget about that. I was raised to be perfect....sometimes i blame my parents...but now i think it's not their fault...

    i don't know i'm confused. but i think also that admitting i've this problem is a little step to start doing something and at least trying to solve this problem.

    Sep 24, 2009
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  • InsanelyMe08
    InsanelyMe08

    Honey, no one is perfect. Having a problem is not a bad thing, everyone has problems, it's denying or doing nothing about your problems that is not good. Once you begin to get help you will start feeling so much better about you. Once you tell someone, you will realize that it wasn't as horrible as you thought.



    I hope for you the best dear.

    Sep 24, 2009
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