My Boyfriend Slept With My Gay Best Friend And...

I am very loving, kind and usually happy-go-lucky person. A few months ago I met an extremely interesting and great looking guy who I got along with very well. We started spending a lot of time together and things were only improving. I felt like I really connected with this guy and he told me he felt the same. We had a few really intense mishaps together including him telling me he was still in love with his ex-girlfriend and then left my house with her... another time when he told me he likes hanging out with me because I am as comforting as his mother... this whole time in between he is telling me how much he loves to be around me and how he needs a person like me in his life.

The worst part...last month, an old, really good friend of mine came home from college and the three of us started hanging out. Then I found out that this whole time, the two of them had been ******* behind my back. Some of my other friends knew and stood by silently. So, after six months of a "Facebook official" relationship and one ******* unpleasant confrontation, I was offered the explanation of "How could you have thought we were in a relationship? You should have thought of this as a hopeful friendship." UM... COME AGAIN? After just a week ago you had said that you believe God brought you to me, that he wanted us to meet and then you kissed me over and over? How dare you make me feel like I am the delusional one.

Now that I have been betrayed by the two people I had come to rely on so greatly... how can I find relief from this tormenting, stinging, burning, raging hurt? What can you do when you feel as though your chest cavity has been fractured apart by garden shears? I am so angry, disappointed and depressed I don't know how I will ever be able to resurrect my self-worth. I have none left.

Oh also, if you're wondering where he is right now... he is at a party with with my gay friend and his ex-girlfriend.
geometricgoat geometricgoat
18-21
1 Response May 16, 2012

WELL THAT SUCKS! IM GAY AND MY FRIENDS WHO IS A FEMALE HAD A MAN THAT WANTED ME TO HAVE A SECRET RELATIONSHIP WITH HIM... I TALKED TO HIM FOR A FEW MONTHS WITHOUT HER KNOWING. BY THE WAY ALL 3 OF US WORK TOGETHER IN LAW ENFORCEMENT! I FINALLY TOLD HER WHAT HES REQUEST WAS TOWARDS ME. SHE SAID TO ME SHE HAD ALWAYS HAS A SUSPICION OF HIM BEING GAY... HE HAD NEVER BEEN INTIMATE WITH HER. HOWEVER I FINALLY TOLD HIM HE KNEW WHAT HE WANTED FROM ME AND I ALSO MENTIONED THAT SHE HAD BROUGHT IT TO HIS ATTENTION BEFORE IF HE WAS GAY.. WELL WE ENDED UP IN A FIST FIGHT. ANYWAYS I STILL FEEL PRETTY BAD AFTER 7 MONTHS SINCE THIS HAPPENED AND I DONT KNOW WHO I BETRAYED MORE HIM OR HER? I NEVER WAS ALONE WITH HIM IN ANYWAY.. WE WERE FRIENDS BEFORE AS WELL AS WITH HER. HE PUT ME IN A VERY HARD SITUATION!