CharcoalA 4th degree burn affects the heart, and some victims never really heal. I have been burned to the fourth degree.
Someone I loved, who once loved me nearly killed me with a single sentence. In doing so, she gave me a life sentence.
Because of that burn, I'm hesitant to trust females, especially straight-as-an-arrow females. Because of that burn, I'm slow to tell female friends that I'm bi, and when I do I brace for rejection. Because of that burn, a part of my spirit is crippled.
In time I healed somewhat. I can (with effort) trust other women, I can (with effort) be open and relaxed about my sexuality. I can move with and around the scarring in my soul.
But because of that burn, a bit of my heart will forever be charcoal.
Plaid 31-35, F 0 Mar 30, 2011