Why?

I've been married to my husband for 6 years and we have 2 kids together. He is in the military and I am a housewife. 3 years ago he cheated on me and got herpes, he tried to deny what he had but I saw what it looked like and did my research. I did not leave him because, I told myself, we were overseas and I had no money to just up and leave. We have had no sexlife since, as you could probably guess, and I am still here and we are in the states. Our children are both under the age of 7 so they are sumwhat unaware of the strife between me and him. 
After we got back to the states, I believed that things were going ok and that our marriage might actually have a chance. Only to find out he has been sexting multiple women. I check our phone records and after repeated lying about even talking to these women, I'm still here. Why, you ask yourself. I really don't have a good reason. I married the man right out of highschool and don't really know how to take a care of myself, I guess, I'm scared. No other way to put it. So now, Im in this loveless marriage, hating to stay but afraid to leave. There is more depth to the story but thats the long story, short.
Cyntarah84 Cyntarah84
26-30, F
3 Responses Aug 2, 2010

I know it's Hard, but you must find strength to leave. Whats next? AIDS? Then the kids will have two young dieing parents. Not tryiing to be harsH, but you can open a new door and have your happiness you deserve it. You must leave.

I'm so sorry to hear that! I've since left my husband and moved back home. It's a trying time right now but I figured, it's either me or him. And I love life too much to loose my sanity over someone who doesn't even care. I hope things turn around for you...:-)

i know how you feel my wife of 14 years screwed my own brother and doesn't even give me a good reason she said every thing left her mind what a cop out right i'm afraid of leaving i don't want to lose my kids or hurt them plus i have a mental illness its so messed up