He Cheated, Am I Going Crazy?

My partner and I have been together for 12 years, several years ago (very early into our relationship) he cheated, it hurt but we managed to get threw it. We were happy, that was until a couple of weeks ago when i caught him and my childhood friend together on my couch!! I invited her to stay with me because she was back in the country after living abroad for a few years. I thought I was doing her a favor, letting her stay for a week so she could visit our friends, what a mistake that turned out to be.

Im devastated, I kicked her out of my house and attacked my partner. Im now living alone with my children. He calls me several times a day pleading forgiveness. I cry all the time, every time I think about it my stomach turns and I feel ill. I cant eat or sleep well. I feel like I'm going crazy.

I just cant cope with this pain anymore. It sounds silly but my whole life seems crushed now and I dont know which way to turn anymore. Im so sad.

I cant even look at him at the moment.
katecorky katecorky
31-35, F
5 Responses May 22, 2012

You did the right thing. This sounds like a serial cheater. If you know of two, there are likely others that you don't know about. You are young and deserve happiness from someone that respects you.

See a therapist. This is not your fault. He has the problem not you and don't let him play with your mind. Go to a recovery group and you have every right to be angry and upset.

I can sympathize, I just found out my boyfriend of 3 years has been cheating on me. I was completely blindsided, he was such a great boyfriend and we had a wonderful relationship - but now I'm so blinded by all the hurt and pain that I am feeling I wonder when I can function again properly.<br />
My situation is the same, begging for forgiveness, saying he will do anything to make it right, all I wanna do is swing a right hook in his face. So I am going away staying with a friend and I hope I can gain some clarity, I agreed to go to see a therapist with him too as I am not sure if I want to throw away the relationship.<br />
Good luck and I hope no matter what decision you make, it is what is best for you!

thank you for your reply, its what all my friends and family keep telling me. Its early days but every day you'll get stronger.<br />
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Thank the lord for good friends and family!

Hang in there it will get better. I felt just like you do now once. It takes about 6-8 weeks to get over the initial shock and function normally, and think clearly. You're not going crazy. Time will heal.