I Was Cheated On While I Was Pregnant...awful

I was about five months pregnant with my daughter and I invited my friend Kim over to a barbecue at our house.You see Kim and I are friends because she has a daughter with my ex-husband whom we both left because of abuse and hate him mutually.We both had children with him you see.My two oldest children were by my ex-husband and when we got divorced he met Kim and they had a little girl together.Because we both have full custody of our children I reached out to her and thought we should develop a friendship so the children could keep in touch as they are all brother and sisters.Things had been good between her and I because we found we had so much in common.Anyway, I had her and her daughter over for the cookout and everyone started to get pretty intoxicated besides me(hello I am pregnant at this point).So I told her I would take all the kids in the house(including her daughter) and told her to just stay the night because I didn't want her driving.I set up the guest bedroom for her and then put the Little Mermaid on for all the kids.When I noticed they were all fast asleep I carried each one to bed and went outside to the fire to say goodnight.I noticed Kim and my husband were sitting next to each other but I didn't think anything of it at the time.I said goodnight to everyone and kissed my husband and went to bed.Well I found out about two weeks later from Kim(out of guilt she says) that while I was asleep her and my husband went into the bedroom where she was sleeping(right across the hall from where I was sleeping...brave huh?) and made out and did everything besides intercourse.I was devastated to know this happened in my home after I had trusted her, reached out to her, babysat free for her, etc.I ended up making the decision to stay and to not let it come between her and I for our children's sake.We continue to this day to stay in touch but I have a hard time trusting her.I have forgiven her in my own way because they were both drunk and I honestly believe she wouldn't have done this except for as drunk as she was.She usually never drinks so I gave her the benefit of the doubt.My husband and I have since parted ways recently as this incident happened almost three years ago but he cheated more than just this time I found out later.It hurts very much when you love someone so much, especially when you are pregnant with his child.He now has a girlfriend who easily ways 400 pounds and smells horribly, I don't know what he sees in her but he cheated on me with her at the end as well.She can have him.He'll do the same to her I am sure.He screwed me over big time which is another story you are welcomed to read about on my page.I believe once a cheater always a cheater and if you are a bad person...that's just it.You are and probably always will be a bad person.I got him back though.LOL!When we split up everyone of his friends except one asked me out.They all told me I was beautiful and deserved better than him and wondered why I ever put up with him.After all I had put up(every kind of abuse imaginable) with I decided to go on a few dates and it killed him.He still to this day wants details and has gotten into physical altercations with two of them.I keep the details to myself knowing nothing but dinner and a movie ever happened but I like to let his imagination get the best of him because that's what he deserves.Needless to say he lost four friends and I gained them as mine.We all still stay in touch and watch as his life slowly falls into alcoholism and anger which causes him more self-destruction.I wish him luck because sad as it is I am still completely in love with him.I can't be with him and I know it but I still miss him sooo much.It's strange because it seems the worse a man treats you, pushes you around, cheats, etc.The more you want and need to hear they love you...and you deserved better.One day I hope to finally meet a man who will treat me like a princess and heal my broken heart but until that day comes, sadly I will spend my days missing the times we shared.