Husband Of 12 Years Cheated With A Man

Last year I got suspicious of my husband and his friend because of my husband's behavior. After a while he admitted he loved him and thought they were soulmates but said nothing physical had happened between them. I haven't been able to trust him again so we started going to counseling a few weeks ago. Sunday night he finally confessed to me that the two of them had been having sex for about 6 months until he ended it. Not even in my worst thoughts had I thought he actually had sex with this person. He has always been homophobic, thought it wasn't right and was disgusted by it. Now he says it wasn't what he thought it was and he wasn't disgusted. He still says he is not gay and loves me and wants to be with me. I of course do not believe that because I don't see how you can cheat on someone you love. I also do not believe he can be straight and have sex with a man numerous times. At the very least he has to be bisexual. Now he wants me to forgive him and make our marriage work. I have always said that if someone cheated on me that would be it and he did that plus some in my opinion. And if it were just me I would be gone already. However we have a 6 yr old child and I don't know what to do. I don't know if I can ever trust him again or forget this and forgive him. Have any of you had to deal with this? Any advice? ** Please only serious responses, I am not in a good place right now and I need help**
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Sep 11, 2012