Im Crushed, But Still In Love.Im a 37 year old male...extremely happy in my relationship of 5 years. Have a 6 year old step daughter and 3 year old son. Im super dad, love the kids. A little over a month ago, my partner who I adore said she needed some space to find herself and refind the love. I was destroyed and devastated... I do everything for her and the kids.... Reluctantly I agreed, she got a flat 5 minutes away, and left the kids with me...... What did I do wrong? have I been a **** husband?...so many quetions and no answers....... Then BOOM!.... she comes home to my house in the middle of the night...crying and a little bruised, I ask whats wrong...she wont say, cuddles up and goes to sleep. In the morning I go to work as normal.... I text to see how she is and get only weird and cryptic replies... I sart to worry, whilst contacting her mother for help I decide to head home, ....... She has dropped the kids at school, come home and tried to OD on sleeping pills!...WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON!.......... luckily she is ok, and next day she is back to good health....WHY?..... Turns out she has been cheating on me with a guy she met on the internet, she was bruised that night because she walked in to his house and found him cheating on her!... fight ensued and she got knocked about.... I love her so very badly and have said I want to start again with a clean slate, Im desperately unhappy at the moment but am hoping for a better year. She has a lot of issues to work through and isnt sure she want me... I know she loves me, but its all a bit much. I need her and want her in my life.