I Will Never Know WhyIn a million years I never would have guessed my husband was a cheater. It was a second marriage for both of us and the one thing that we both talked about was how happy we were to have found our soulmate. He was so attentive, love letters, small gifts for no reason, flowers. He was very romantic, when our wedding song would play he would pull me into his arms and we would dance no matter where we were or what we were doing.
Besides being a loving husband he was an amazing father to my kids. He adored them and they adored him. After years of being a single mom I finally had a "real" family. The only thing to make it complete would be a child of our own. My pregnancy was not an easy one, nothing physically wrong but somehow things just didn't feel right. We seemed to fight more than before, he was distant. Our daughter was born and I assumed what felt wrong was just pregnancy hormones.
By the time our daughter was a year old everything was back to normal, in fact even better than before. After years of my telling him that he needed to leave his job for something better he finally did. We bought a house, I started a business, he was making more money, things were perfect.
And then he got sick. Months of dry hacking coughs. Doctors told him it was pneumonia. They were wrong. He had lung cancer and a week after he was diagnosed he passed away. Our daughter was three years old, she would never know her daddy.
One year after his death, on April Fools Day of all days, I found out that he had another child. This child was collecting social security benefits from my husband. He was 10 months younger than our daughter. This boys mother was someone that we both had worked with, she pretended to be my friend when what she really was, was a ***** who slept with my husband.
It has been four years since I found out. I am still so angry, hurt, devastated. How could he have done this? Why? I will never know, I will never have answers. He is gone and I am left with this pain.
coffeemom73 36-40, F 1 Response 0 Jan 20, 2013