Cruel Things Happen to Wonderful People.._x

m y grandparents on my mum's side were such lovely people, i don't remember a lot but wat i do remember makes me cry and what ive been told about them makes me miss them even more. but both my mum's parents died of cancer, and the only person on my "stepdad's" side who accepted me and loved me died of cancer when i was young, my auntie's friend who i think of as an auntie, her parents died of cancer and they the most wonderful, caring, kind people you could ever meet.

my mum had a few breast cancer scares, im so afraid she's going to get it.. i dont get on very well with her most days but i love her very much i couldn't handle her having it too. everyone around me is getting ill and im afraid im going to be left even more alone..

i love my family, though i feel like an outsider almost all of the time, i wouldn's swap them for the world. i'l like to have grandparents and to have my auntie's friend's parents back, but that isnt going to happen..

i hope a cure is found soon, cancer is such a horrible disease, i cant even describe what its like to watch someone dies of cancer..