At What Point In Your Life To Do You Separate Yourself From Your Family?I should know better, but deep down inside it still hurts me.
All I ever wanted was a family to love me for me.
I would love to be able to open up and share and be myself around them.
They just don't understand. They are too worried about what people think to care about my own happiness.
They rather me stay in an abusive relationship than be with a guy that loves me for who I am and makes me feel special.
Their words and actions hurt. Even after all these years, nothings ever good enough.
I gets so frustrating hearing other people talk about their families and they don't even realize how lucky they are.
I have to accept that I will never have a 'normal' life.
I need to learn to get over the hurt.
I've wasted too much of my life being constantly disappointed by them. I don't want to hurt anymore.
I want to run away, but at the same time, I want to be able to spend time with my grandpa while he's still alive.
So conflicted, as he is 93 yrs old this year and still has the nerve to tell me off over the phone telling me how much of a screw up I am
and how I've made such terrible decisions. I know he is just old and stuck in his ways, but I wish he could just be happy for me.
I've done the most for him out of my whole family, but then my dad will make comments how I'm just using him for money.
I've never asked for anything.
I should just let go of all of it. Forget about them. They say they just want the best for me, but they've never really supported me in anything in life.
I just hate how I feel so guilty, so obligated to go to family functions.
I should focus on myself more and what makes me happy. And not feel guilty that I'm actually doing something for myself for once.