Love With Limitations

I was raised to believe that family was everything. That family would be there for you and help you get through anything. It was a lie.

Actually, the truth is that my family would be there for me as long as I obeyed and did exactly what I was told to do. I was not allowed to question anything. I am not speaking about household rules or social activities, I am referring to my right to chose my own future, to be the person I want or at least hope to become.

I was told that I would marry and become a "true Mormon wife", that my only responsibility would be to care for my husband and give him a large family for him to rule over. When I started to voice my displeasure with this idea and even my troubles with our faith, my family turned against me. In he end I was cast out like an old rug.

After everything that I had been told, everything that I was taught, this crushed me. Luckily, I was stronger than they expected, and I survived. Now I am free and on my own able to look back and wonder if I will be able to save my sisters from the fate that had been reserved for me.
SeekingAmanda SeekingAmanda
22-25, F
Jan 23, 2013