Please Somebody Listen To Me, Somebody Help Me

To start` off my boyfriend and i have been with each other for three years.

in the beggining of the relationship, i lied to him about my past of the guys i had been with, because one i was taken advantage of horribly and i was ashamed of myself. and once he found out he called me a sl*t and a wh**e.

 

my boyfriend has cheated on me multipul times and even a few times before he found out i lied. then months down the road i was with a few of my girlfriends and a guy grabbed my hand for less then a minute and i didnt tell him about it then when i did, he says i cheated on him

so today i annoyed him when i got confused about something, i like thought he meant something about the house alarm being on and i was like no no babe it isnt on and he was like well why not and i explanned why and he was like "god! do you ever listen i meant the phone alarm so i know when to leave. youre so annoying!"

and once he got annoyed he left our house and went to his sisters house and his ex amanda was there and i texted him and said is there anyone there i should know about and he texted back "Manda" and so i called and was like are you serious you are going to call her by her nickname and he was like well you call your ex by his nickname all the time my ex's name is r.j but that  isn't his real name but it is the name he gets called by everyone because he is the second one in his family with the name.

and we got in to this big fight and he was like " your a horrible girlfriend i should just be with amanda, get her to suck my d**k and make me c*m, you know you made me realize i am in love with her" and then i started crying and he was like "go ahead and cry, i don't care" and then broke up with me and hung up. i then called back and he answered and he was laying down with his ex in bed talking to her all sweet because she didnt feel good.

 

 

i am so hurt and i dont know what to do. after everything that i did wrong the lying ( which was in the very very start of the relation ship and the hand holding was a year ago) do i deaserve all of this?, what can i do to make things better?,  i love this man but i dont know what to do please help me

p.s... i had to edit this story just now because i texted him and asked him what he was doing and he said leave me alone im with my girlfriend.. and i called and him and his ex really are back together...

ArielRose16 ArielRose16
18-21, F
2 Responses Mar 11, 2010

You are not married, there are no children.....save yourself and get out now. Get some space, look at things rationally and let him miss you. Then if you really feel the need to, try to connect again. But do it out of love not neediness. You don't need misery. <br />
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You sound young, you can change your life for the better.

babe..... i know u are hurt babe.... just hang on. u dont dserve this much of the pain altho u claim that u did wrong in the start of the relationship. hun, i'd say the only way to make things BETTER FOR YOURSELF is to not try make things better between u and him. <br />
how could a man says stuff like "your a horrible girlfriend i should just be with amanda, get her to suck my d**k and make me c*m, you know you made me realize i am in love with her", even if its out of anger. that's not respecting u at all. thats too much. what the hell to him....... what the hell.. i wish u the best. i'd forget him if i were u. even if it takes a lot to forget about him, it'd still do it. <br />
ive been hurt so much, and so to me, love isnt enough.