Holding On

Why do I keep holding on
even though I know it will never be
Why do I keep holding on
when what we have is killing me
Why do I keep holding on
wishing the dream were still alive
Why do I keep holding on
realizing our love will never survive
Why do I keep holding on
to the feeling I have for you
Why do I keep holding on
knowing you will never be true
Why do I keep holding on
why can't I see
That by holding on to you
I am slowly losing me.
texastomboy texastomboy
36-40, F
4 Responses Jul 3, 2012

WOW! That was beautiful and well written!

Wow, this poem really hits home. This is exactly how I feel. I am literally praying for strength every single day. He is in jail again for assault and battery, and I'm praying for the strength to not take him back this time

Wow T..you are in a lot of pain..*hugs*

I was, yes. Im in a great place now. I just hope my poetry and experiences can heal and educate others. Ive been to some dark places but I am a much better and more balanced person for it. Time heals.

You make me cry I understand your pain so perfectly. I don't want to let go of my abusive boyfriend even though it has ruined my life and taken all of me. Last night was the last time. It is really tough to be strong. I joined this group cause I know how bad I need to hear others stories to make me strong so I won't go back. I think you have a lot of courage and are a great writer.

I didnt want to let go either. It finally took my girlfriend leaving me before I finally realized what she had put me through. Only then did I see how desperate I had become. Her leaving me saved my life. You are very strong and brave and you are not alone. Im here for you.

Thank you, you are very kind. I hope that I can stay strong because the emotional attachment is so powerful I really don't want to let go, that is the hardest part. Thank you for giving me strength.