ScarsI am new to this site, I figured I would try it out and hope to get some support. I was eighteen years old when I got together with my physically and mentally abusive ex-boyfriend. We lived together for a year and a half. We meet over a phone chat line (I know stupid mistake on my part). He pressured me into sex using the classic line, "oh you don't love me". He had a temper; punched holes in the wall. Always putting me down calling me stupid or saying, " there's something wrong with you, your just like your mother". My mother is bipolar, which I am not. He hit me twice on the thigh while we were together. I was stuck I felt, but I was stronger than that. I sat down and took a good look at what I wanted in my future and it wasn't what I had at that present time. It's been about three years now and I still have some trust issues and insecurities of being wanted. I am now with a wonderful man that loves and cares for me. He is the most amazing, caring, loving, honest, and patient, man I know. He would do anything for me and I love him so much. It kills me that I can't completely trust him. I do trust him I am just so afraid of being hurt again, but deep down inside I know he wouldn't do that to me. What are some ways that I can learn to trust fully again?
Sjohn83 22-25 4 Responses 1 Jan 7, 2013