I've Been In Two Abusive Relationships.
You would think I would learn from the 1st abusive relationship, but it really was a different situation the 2ND time.
When I was 18yrs I became pregnant and chose to marry. At that time we were both clean & sober. On the night my child was born my husband went out to celebrate and I never saw him sober again. When my child was 3 months we moved into a trailer house in SD on no man's land with no neighbors for miles. I had no phone, no vehicle and no one to check-up on me.
He would beat me & rape me and then leave to go to town. He'd come back with some food a couple days later, and it would happen all over again. We lived on the land of a large cattle ranch. Three months later someone left one of the pick-ups at our place. I grabbed my baby (6 months old) and a few things we needed. I drove 250mi to the nearest large city with an airport & a plane to take me home. 5 months later I experienced a lot of pain. I lost so much blood I almost passed out on the way to the hospital. And then this & that & this & that and I went into labor. The Dr.'s said they couldn't stop the labor and the baby wouldn't survive. It's 1977 and they could not save the baby. I prayed to God & he stopped the contractions. I still call her my miracle baby. I tell you about her only because it was the abuse that I almost lost her.
The second time was as horrible. We would drink tequila and smoke crack. And the abuse continued to get worse. My addiction was so bad there was a time I chose to stay anyways. When it reached a point of no return, I left as of 2yrs ago last Dec. 2ND. I've been clean & sober ever since.