Missing My Airman

When my boyfriend left for boot camp, I felt so alone....like I was left with nothing. The lack of communication caused me so much pain. I started wondering if I'd ever see him again or if the military would change him so much that he wouldn't want me in his future anymore. I feared him finding someone else. I wondered what I would do if he moved on and forgot about me. When you make something or someone you're everything in life, it's so damn painful when you lose them. You feel empty...like you're not the same person. I couldn't sleep more than a couple hours for about the first month he was away. It was so damn hard. Thankfully, things have become easier and I'm not quite as sleep deprived. I don't cry myself to sleep any more but I still long for the day that I'll be able to finally fall asleep in his arms again. I miss him so much

usafsweetheart usafsweetheart
18-21
3 Responses Feb 12, 2009

yeah those are things you are going to experience i experience each and everyone of the things u said having a military boyfriend is one of the hardest things you will ever have to go through people dont understand the pain u go through nor or less what its like to miss someone stay strong your journey is just beginning but love will and can conquer all believe in your relationship trust in your relationship and love one another im here for you i know what u feel in me u will always have a friend take care stay strong

Thanks bro. You have no idea how much that means to me

You're one of the strongest people I know sis, you'll get through this and I'll be here to help you along every step of the way