I Was Raped By My Friend
Being typical children at my primary school, people had a tonne of fights, but we got over them quickly. During another childish fight in Year 4, I wandered off and started talking to the "black sheep" of the class, a male [who I'll keep nameless] who practically everyone hated. Over time him and myself became friends, then some of my friends joined the group.
Nearing the last few weeks of Year 6 and the end of Primary school, we were just having a normal conversation when I felt myself be pushed to the ground. Instincts [sp?] told me to hit him off and I tryed but I couldn't, because he was putting all his weight on me so that I couldn't breathe. Luckily, he didn't get very far that time, but I was a frickin' idiot and didn't run, because, throughout the week, he abused me, pulled down my pants and shoved his hands into me.
On the last day of school, he brang one of his friends with him and they held me down, his friend forcing his lips onto mine so I couldn't scream [and God how I tried to scream], while he did more things to me and I could feel it start ripping. This went on for an entire hour and I have no idea how that happened because we were in school.
By the end of it I was shaking but I tryed to cover it up because I was scared that if anyone found out he would hunt me down the next year [we were/are going to different high schools] and do more things. So I just went home and had a shower to wash the blood from where I'd torn.
It's been less then two years, little over one since it happened [I'm now 13, Year 8] and whenever I feel someone even just tap my back I flinch away and try to run. I tried to get counsilling but I never heard back from her so now I guess I'm just going to live with this stupid fear in the back of my head.
I've never told my family about this, only a few friends know.
I also started cutting myself last year just to feel something other then that.