My Ex-step-father

I never trusted him. Steve. There was always, just something about him. My mother started dating him when I was 7 years old. He used to take me and my sister to the playground while he and mom sat at the picnic table talking and flirting. He used to buy us ice cream. He would try to win our trust.


When mom moved in with him, he began to get an attitude. He was a drunk. He would threaten us. I watched him beat my younger sister with a belt because she was doing something to annoy him. We were scared of him.


By the time I was 9 and my sister was 7, mom gave birth to my youngest sister. My half sister. My mother and Steve decided to get married. I'm sure that they never would have if my youngest sister was never there.


It was shortly after she was born when it began. He would be drunk and usually high. Back then I didn't know what high ment, so I just thought he was drunk. It would be late at night. Mom was in bed and I couldn't sleep, so I'd stay up and watch tv. He'd compliment me. Sit too close. He'd stroke my bare leg. I would wear a long pajama shirt and underwear, what we always wore to bed. He'd play with himself under the blanket that was on the couch. He'd take the blanket off and reveal his penis. He tried to pull my hand over to touch it. I'd pull away. He'd put his arm around me. Travel down my arm, to my side, to my belly, and finally to my underwear. He'd stroke me through my underwear. I was terrified. I didn't know what he was doing. He would try to go inside my underwear, but I would block him. "someday, you'll be ready for that" he'd whisper.


I would be frozen in fear. Afraid and try to make up some excuse to go to bed. I knew he'd try to stop me, as he always did. He'd give me a hug good nights and hold me close to him, pushing me up against his chest and rubbing my back, my butt. He'd kiss my lips. I would fall asleep crying. I couldn't tell anyone because I was scared about what he would do. He had a horrible temper.


There was once when my mother and my sisters were gone somewhere and Steve and I were alone. It was durring the day. He was drunk and probably stoned. I was watching tv and he grabbed me by the arm and dragged me to his bedroom. I was shaking. He layed me down on the bed and got ontop of me. We both still had our clothes on, but I could feel all of him pressing into me. He humped me. I didn't understand what was happening. I could barely breathe. He humped hard and fast and when he got up, he told me he had to change his pants. As I look back on it now, I'm positive that it was because he came in his pants.


As I got older, I got smarter and learned to stay away from him, but he'd still try. When I got my first boyfriend, he tried to get me to kiss him. To french kiss him. He wanted to teach me. I had a good idea about how to do it, but I was deffinatly not showing him. He licked my lips and tried to force his tounge between them. "come on, you wouldn't kiss your boyfriend like that, would you?" And whenever I would excape, he would give me that same hug, pushing my now growing breasts into his chest and rubbing my back and down to my butt.


When I was 15, I moved out of my mother's house and permanantly into my father's house. My sister and I had been living in both places. Dad's one week, mom's the next. I played it off as an excape from mom's verbal abuse. It was that, and the sexual abuse from Steve.


It wasn't until I was 18 when I finally told someone about it. I told my boyfriend at the time first. He was very supportive and told me that I had to tell my parents. He went with me to do it. Mom and Steve were already devorced by this time. But Steve went on trial. I had to testify. And my full sister as well. She experienced sexual abuse from him too. This was the first time she told me. We both talked infront of a room full of strangers. Our testimonies were recorded and played for Steve's trial, so we wouldn't have to talk in front of him.


He was sentenced to 9 months in jail, with all but 3 months suspended, and 2 years probation. I was shocked. I guess it was some sort of plea bargin deal they made if he pled guilty. He deserved much much more than that!

cinymin cinymin
18-21, F
10 Responses Oct 25, 2006

The punishment rarely fits the crime. The victims ought to be invited to give an opinion on what was appropriate.

I am sorry for you. a mother should be more careful for their daughters!

so many wrong people in this shocking world..it amazes me how these people can act this way ..hope you came out a brighter stronger person x

Im sorry. Why is it that so many mother trust step father who drink etc with their kids.<br />
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I hope you are happier and stronger now.xx

Wow, I can't believe it...<br />
He should have been sentenced to death, duh!

I am sorry that you and your sister didn't get more justice. I feel that they don't get punished enough and then some get punished too much. Such as girlfirends and boyfriends that have consentual sex but one is under age. That person shouldn't be punished for the rest of his life. But when an adult makes sexual advances on children against there will, they should be jailed forever. Sexual preditors can't be helped. Rapists and other perverts are not able to be cured of their ways. <br />
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I am so sorry that you both had to endure that kind of thing(s) in your younger childhood. Makes it hard to be a normal kid. Too afraid to do anything or go home. I understand your pain sweetie. If you ever need or want to talk, email me. I am here to listen or maybe attempt to give some kind of feedback. Take care and best wishes.

Hopefully being a registered sex offender will be more protective and punishing than you feel it is for now.<br />
Now your real work begins as you choose how you will value yourself, your mind, your body, and your relationships with men. I wish you deep joy, and happiness

Your mom should have never exposed you two girls to a guy that had bad temper and attitude!!! what kind of mother??? And that guy deserved wayyy more jail time.....Trial's are so unfair.....I hope you are doing good......i wish you all the best.....huggs

Admiration. I'm glad that you were brave enough to report your stepfater

I think it is very brave of youn to write down what happened to you. I hope that you now live in a more loving environment.