My Life

I have been married for 23 years too the same man. He has been addicted to one thing are another since we have been together, first pain pills, now he's on suboxone, what a laugh. Now he take nerve pills, any kind and all kinds. He doesn't take just one he takes them until he is so messed up. He is hateful, lies all the time, and dr shops daily. Oh yea hes been to rehab 5 times. I am so sick of this crap, i just want out but have no where to go and no money to go on... All i ever wsnted was happiness, and security.
wendyc5 wendyc5
41-45, F
1 Response Sep 24, 2012

I understand, I have been married for 33 yrs. 6 yrs ago he had surgery and the Doctors have put him on pain meds. Oxy and morphine.( he snorts then now) he was a great guy at one time. He is now so different ,cranky,hateful,drinking. has lost a lot of his drive. I have tried to talk about it with him, sometimes he is receptive and other times not. We own our one business and things are very slow for the last 4 yrs. We had to drop our insurance. He says he is afraid of the pain he will be in if he stops.I know that is an excuse . I don't think I love the person he has become and I also want out. But try and find a job at 63 that can support me and try to save money for old age. I have tried to find meetings to go to in our area just to vent and maybe net work to find a job so I can get out. Can't seem to find anything that fits what I need. I'm in Scottsdale Arizona anybody know of any help groups or meetings for people who our with addicts?