I Don't Know What To Tell You At All.

Back sometime in 2003 everyone knew I wasn't a big fan of bush because I had the audacity to say something about the man in roughly 2002 or so and I was pushed up against a wall as an anti american extremist within this country and a race traitor and while to some extent I could hold that I've been mad at my own country for letting this stuff happen and some of my statements in a more angry state before acceptance could easily be twisted into my whole scale hatred of american citizens but the truth is i'm just upset that people don't ask questions. I'm upset at how easily we were taken in by this mans use of the big lies. Trying to Tie 9/11 to Iraq, ETC. Over time it got so dizzying and frustrating trying to fight this mans propaganda and bullshit I Did absolutely crazy **** to cope and I'm not sure employers in this country would even be interested in me given just how deep off the other end I went. It's fairly well known I've comitted crimes AND gotten away with them past the statue of limitations, etc and appear to be suffering detachment like sympthoms on an emotional level. I would like you to know that the person behind this screen has cared so much at points acts in the media and the junta we were put through has been enough to cause me to sob hysterically and in a panic. while bush was in office I was often gripped ever constantly by fears of the man getting into a nuclear exchange with someone who had nothing to do with it. I mean after all what was he doing except smashing up cultures he didn't even understand without even so much as trying to know the people. Over time my academic understanding of the war had gotten so low I read about the Emerald jungle and how **** was so bad that bush had put people in charge of major operations who had no more experience that ice truck drivers and began to read up about defense contracts to build masssvie buildings there with no regulations and no safety standards that cost our government millions of dollars and then the building would just fall apart completely. I began to see Bush for what he was, a man who had deliberatley wasted government money in order to reward his defense contractors who would in turn donate to his campaign.

I've been demonized by many american citizens as being "psychotic" simply for not submitting to the lies of leadership and not wanting to go back into a psychologist office. psuedo psychotic would be a better phrasing. I'm aware in places I look crazy but my belief structures are either suffering from a lack of knowledge of the impossibility of things or a knowledge of what the US media LEFT Out of it's news reporting, for years. Most americans got their news from CNN, msnbc, and most especially fox news while I slowly gained a sense of what was objective and started for favor NPR and sources like dailykos

I realize I got off the rocker sometimes and post Norman livergood at Hermes press but his site is a treasure trove of links that prove his points. I'm supposed to think my lack of romantic success in my fault but given how readily I watched my country buy into lies I'm somewhat unable to suspect it had much to do with me.

Sadly having pursued the truth turned me into a political junkie and that's not a very sexy thing to be. Most americans would rather be distracted than truly engaged and critical. That's their free will but mine isn't so simple and I worry about them. I worry because I suspect i'll them a year later as emaciated kids if they don't start screaming about what's happening. The mobility myth is being slowly torn asunder and the thin veneer of lies is coming out piece by piece. That regardless of what you hear on the news for instance or from your conservative family Tax cuts have never been proven to create jobs or cause revenue growth and that our leaders are considering the madness of benefit cuts to appease republican insanity. There's a massive rumor that's fought over tooth and nail about austerity and if it works and sense people are emotionally attached to the idea of if austerity works they try to argue that spending cuts aren't the same thing as tax cut sand SPENDING cuts would work. There's no evidence for this position in the historical context and yet it's repeated ad nausem because those people are trying to believe what they want to believe. 

as I begin to analyze the historical record and compare resources it becomes ever more apparent that this country is a minefield of complex distorted perceptions of what political reality is and many are just of that mindframe because they need a leader to tell them "everythings going to be ok" but my response to that is "marching bodies like sheep to the rhythm of the war drum"

 
when republicans scream about "Freedom" sense I know what I know I know they mean "Freedom" for THEM and Tyranny for the CATTLE, their followers..

and you can see it openly all the time. They line up to rally behind their leaders who are Dedicated sociopaths.

you have a lot of control freaks in office. That's just one of the major problems. They're addicted to power.

I have a LONG memory and once I understand history even LONGER than i'v been ALIVE

"You're either with us, or you're with the terrorist" -George bush.

I know you're going to pull all "reduction to hitler!" on this so i'm going to preempt that and say i'm just comparing their methods and not the "countries they built"

"The people can always be brought to the bidding of the leaders. That is easy. All you have to do is tell them they are being attacked and denounce the pacifists for lack of patriotism and exposing the country to danger. It works the same way in any country." -

Hermann Göring


and my concern the whole time this man was in office is that while I was being marginalized:

F"irst they came for the Socialists, and I did not speak out--
Because I was not a Socialist.

Then they came for the Trade Unionists, and I did not speak out-- 
Because I was not a Trade Unionist.

Then they came for the Jews, and I did not speak out-- 
Because I was not a Jew.

Then they came for me--and there was no one left to speak for me."


this country of course turned course under obama but in many ways the man is a continuation of bush's disasterious war policy

Where are the christians on this? asleep as ever.

Matthew 5:9 
Blessed are the peacemakers, for they will be called sons of God.

I might be "Crazy" but at least i'm a Rational kind of "we can understand why he might be afraid" Cray.

some of my friends want to me to go in and get regimentation for Risperdal but in a major way I credit having ceased to take the medication with my being drawn to research instead of complacency. Of course this making me unsettling for many people around me but the truth is it's what happens when you start to deprogram from a horrible state.

of course people are now convinced my perspective is warped now that I'm trying to control it myself-because we can't seem to come to a consensus on what reality is.

to them i'm just a robot who doesn't think for myself and have deferred to let my masters in the "socialist movement" do my thinking for me but the truth is any political thought i've ever had has been expressed before. There's nothing new under the sun.

the girl i'm MOST into btw, rejects all political thought.  I want away from it. All these poltiicans try to do is control others. What I am becoming is spiritual.

Your entire system is a gigantic fraud, wither you want to accept it or not. You'd have to be reading books and looking at the right news sources to know.

http://www.theatlantic.com/business/archive/2012/09/tax-cuts-dont-lead-to-economic-growth-a-new-65-year-study-finds/262438/ just one ever so constantly parroted lie that it does no good to point out  at all.

as I Write all of this behind the scenes historical revisionist are attempting to paint Hitler as a left winger. Yep. even though there's NO academic dispute over him being a right winger. They've realized the entirety of history is up to be rewritten by these ********.

I'm paranoid because every time ONE video shows the truth 10 more tell the lie

 


watch the video. The sidebar? it's full of batshit insane. Most of our country.