I Was Admitted to a Psychiatric Ward

In November last year I was in a mental hospital for a week. I had severe depression and I was suicidal. I had planned my suicide and my self harm had become a lot worse, my doctor decided to admit me into hospital to keep me safe. I was sent to an adults ward even though I was 17 at the time so I was the youngest person there. I was quite scared at first but it did keep me safe from myself and I stayed for a week until my suicidal thoughts became less intense and I discharged myself after a week.  I still struggle with this illness but I am better than I was then. I have been through psychotherapy which helped a lot and i recommend it to anyone going through similar experiences to me.

I have been suffering from depression for nearly 4 years now, it started when I was 15 but I didn't understand it at the time. I was in secondary school and I started to self harm and I became very isolated and withdrawn. I lost all my friends and I got bullied. I went through a lot of terrible things when I was little which has left me damaged and emotionally scarred. It is why I'm the way I am today.

thesoundofsilence thesoundofsilence
18-21, F
9 Responses May 9, 2007

I was put into Bellefaire JCB which is and adoption/residential home, I got put into a lock down ward because I was self harming and talking about suicide, this went on since I was 8 years old. At the age of 17 my mom was thinking about plaining my grave, I was asscorted out of my house by two police men and taking to bellefaire. They put me on 900 mg of lithium and then takin off with in a few weeks of taking it, I got really sick and had a fever of 102 and puked up any and everything I ate...I went in weighing 115 pounds and after I got sick I dropped to 102 pounds. Girls picked fights with me and alarms went off all through the night, I watched my room cut he arms with broken glass from the bathroom lights. I spent three long months there and I got out on may 7th 2010 because I turned 18, I still have nightmares about that place...

i'm 15 i get depressed and i have suicidal thoughts and self harm but i never tell anyone it gets people worried and i'm not telling anyone because i enjoy it so its nothing bad to me so i'm ok

Hi so this is 2 years later but I was wondering if you still cut yourself? I know you think people will get worried if you tell them and they will, but it will be because they CARE about you.

i went through something simular things, good on you,your very strong that something i'm still working on god bless you...xox

i went through something simular things, good on you,your very strong that something i'm still working on god bless you...xox

Were you scared being in there? Did you see a lot of crazy people in there? I'm just asking in case I end up there one day. I battle depression and anxiety. I've thought about suicide a few times. My doctor said if i didn't stop having these thoughts he would put me in the hospital. I've tried to not to think about suicide anymore. I hope I can get better on my own instead of having to go in there. I don't want to be away from my kids or my husband. My kids are so young they wouldn't understand.

Were you scared being in there? Did you see a lot of crazy people in there? I'm just asking in case I end up there one day. I battle depression and anxiety. I've thought about suicide a few times. My doctor said if i didn't stop having these thoughts he would put me in the hospital. I've tried to not to think about suicide anymore. I hope I can get better on my own instead of having to go in there. I don't want to be away from my kids or my husband. My kids are so young they wouldn't understand.

i relate...i dont cut often, ususally it is more like flirting with death if not real attempts at ending my life.<br />
i went to the hospital and left and i still feel nothing is changing...<br />
i am trying real hard, but i just dont trust anymore- how can you trust when your own parents were never really there to show you how...<br />
eden

my daughter who is 15 cuts. she is about to start counselling, i hope it helps. she has confided in me some of the stuff that happened to her in the past...

hey how are you i just wannted to say that i've been through the same thing i was a cutter for about 4 years and i was extremly suicidal i was ammited into the hospital 2 times and now i feel like i'm goin back into the same stuff but i just wannted to say i'm here for you anytime