Shaking, Sweating... Nauseous....

Another morning... last night?  Last night?  Right.... I remember until about 9.... 9:30, another drink and.....

Morning.

Shaking, sweating.... get up.... get to the bathroom, worship the porcelin goddess.... gah....

Looking in the mirror?  Who is she?  Sweating, hair sticking out, eyes bloodshot...

shower.  still shaking...

get to closet, get the hidden bottle out... drink deep.... ahhhhhhhh

do it again.

shakes stop.... put on makeup... eyedrops.... gargle too!  Dress nice.... another bottle hidden in the car....

I can handle the day.  Now.

SaratogaGirl SaratogaGirl
26-30, F
4 Responses Feb 25, 2010

same here....just one drink in the morning to keep from shking too much....then another...quietly throw up once i get to work...THIS HAS GOT TO STOP....I have let this get out of control and tonight will be my first night with out drinking in over a year

(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))

I hope so....

But this all going to change now! And we are here to help you, all of us!