Forever Young

People can be nice when it's easy. They used to say "you look so young for your age" "you can't possibly be that old". Then...it all stopped. Or that is how I perceived it. But looking back on it now. It seems it happened because I felt unworthy to be young and have compliments. My self esteem just couldn't accept anything nice anyone said. I wouldn't let those thoughts in. I found that I started protecting myself from the outside world (by gaining weight and becoming less attractive) and then, it's like I finally woke up. I finally saw...I opened my eyes and found out what I had been doing. It's going to be a long road back to being forever young. But I am on the road there and I hope I make it.
Benchstone Benchstone
56-60, F
Dec 14, 2012