Please, Don't

I dread hearing those words in any language. It means the end -- the fun part is over, and now it's about building a relationship and a future.

That's not what I wanted from dating. I wanted frivolity and fun. I wanted casual sex and no commitment beyond the lies I told to make him think he was the only guy I wanted to ****. At the time, it was true, and it was true for each of them. But in the long term -- really???

You believed that if you told me that you love me, that I'd throw my whole life into the bucket that contained your life. You put a lot of thought into it, trying to time it so I wouldn't freak out. You imagined the life we'd have together after you committed to saying those words to me.

It just changes so many things -- little wonder that I'd freak out! Why upset the apple cart? Didn't you like the windfall fruit of our lust? Why wasn't it enough? Why did you have to go and ruin it?
auroramaru auroramaru
46-50, F
Dec 3, 2012