I Have Been Unfaithful For 11 YearsI met this bloke at church, he was a friend of my manager. Things changed when my manager had to go overseas for 3 months and I had to act on her position. I needed someone to give me support which I wasn't getting from my husband and he was there and he kept checking of how I was almost more than 3 times a day; in the morning when I come to the office during the day and before I leave the office he would check how the day went.
We got close through those calls, we even discussed our family challenges. Since I was working far from home and my husband never visited me on weekdays, he even took more than 100km drive to come and check or even bring me some stuff which I needed from town. It went on like that for about 3 months and we soon realized that we spent more time together than it should be and we are becoming more intimate with each other.
It went on like that and we kept our secret from everyone. My marriage and his were slowly going down the drain. Blinded by love and all he was to me I never thought our relationship was the cause of all the dis-satisfactions at home. I had a well paying job, took kids to boarding schools and life was good outside home. My husband was busy with his own thing on the other hand which I didn't care or bothered to know what they were. He used his money the way he desired and still demanded some financial support from me, all this did not worry me because I had my secret lover who made me happy.
After 11 years of sneaking out and realizing that my marriage was irretrievable and the financial situation was getting worse day by day. I asked for a separation just to take a break and think things through. My secret lover was with me and supportive all the way. It's been 2 years now of separation and the divorce is dragging. Sometimes I feel I contributed a lot to the fall and my secret love as well. In all the ups and downs of my marriage he would keep on advising me not to leave and talked some sense to my confused mind but I still feel he is not innocent.
I'm confused and I feel some betrayal from his side. He is still happily married while I'm going through a divorce. We have been together for 13 years now but I have mixed emotions about the relationship. Should I continue with it after divorce or take a break and find myself again. At the age of 46 its difficult to find an honest partner. I'm lost